stonygal's stony days..

thursday..memories..thoughts..

2005-08-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I

run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had

The best I ever had
Best I ever...

missing my buddy

2005-08-25T02:46:00.000+08:00

I was having a good stroll this evening...i seems to like to walk after i came back from perth..but this time..the feeling is different..very different..

in perth..whenever i strolled..i will have my best buddy,rowena ard..we strolled from summer,autumn and winter...miss spring..haiz..summer we complained about the heat...,autumn we complained the wind...,winter we complained the rain...,end of chapter..i ended my chapter in perth...very heartbreaking..

u have been a very very good buddy...we spend alot of special moments together....the first flight we took to perth...tears and joy..u named it all..memories will be hard to forget..

i always remember our first solo trip up north...damn brave..our drinking sessions under the starry night in monkey mias dolphines resort..the cold ice beer..chatting,sharing stories..staying in tt backpackers hotel...travelled 950km on the bus with u..the nice pasta we had in kalbari...till today..i still can remember the taste of tt pasta..fireworks ...

Back In Singapore

2005-08-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Finally..after 6 months..I am finally back to my homeland..SINGAPORE..haha..

lotsa things happened..but well..is over and lets start a new chapter..let me see..maybe i should change my blog appearance..

alrighty..i had a nice farewell party in perth..thanks to all those who make things happen...

It was sad to go..seriously..all of u left a very deep impression in my life..

bad stormy weather in perth

2005-08-14T10:47:00.000+08:00

i had a great time in church ytd..thanks to jean..n many things had happened during this short period of time..good and bad...definately rough patch of my life..

too long for me to explain..

jean gave me this bookmark..i love it alot..probably share with all of u out there..

Take Time for Friendship

Take time to make a friend.
It is the opportunity to love.

Take time to help a friend.
It is the foundation of goodwill.

Take time to listen to a friend.
It is the key to understanding.

Take time to laugh with a friend.
It is the way to multiply joy.

Take time to encourage a friend.
It is a chance to make a difference.

Take time to comfort a friend.
It is the occasion for loving-kindness.

Take time to call God your friend.
He is the wellspring of all fellowship.

Jill Wolf

what is the defination of open minded?

2005-07-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

I was talking to a friend and finally snapped...

he really pushed me to my maximun limit...with all his own point of views without realising tt he is stepping all over me...

i thought i could tolerate and endure with his own point of view..but somehow he just snapped me tonight..

for someone who is brought up in such a weird family ...i always tell myself to be gracious with him but things seem to get out of hand.n i finally told him off..asking him to get off my back..

n stop judging my friends with ur tt narrow minded point of view..i know i am bad la...i should not tell him off but i will just exploded one day in aus..is better i exploded today..

i just wanna tell him..get a life dude

Counting Down

2005-06-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho...I am left with less than 24 hr to take off....and before you know..I am back in Singapore...

Just woke up,what a nice weather to sleep in..but cant gotta make my way down to the Chancellory to get some administrative matters done and maybe down to Freo with Alwin cos he said he got things to buy..no idea what kind of things..

well well..i just changed my driving exam date to 8/8/05...i have taken up the challenge but somehow i am not confidence at all...has been some time i last drove manual..hahah..

after freo..probably going to someone's place to see how he bake...wonder what cakes he will be baking this time...my my..look at e time..i will be late...i will write more when i am back home..i cant wait

sending off..

2005-06-24T03:35:00.000+08:00

hmm...just got back from the airport after sending off 2 of my good friends who really look after me when i am in perth...well well..who r they...clarence and ben..they r really good people...taking care of me when i am in perth...clarence of cos for his time for fetching me ard and ben..always there to send me anywhere ...

well..the first night without them around...hmm...well..things will be okie cos i will be seeing them really soon..sunday..

well..i realised tt one does not need alot of time to know someone...we can be attracted to someone by their character..good and outstanding character which lotsa people wish to have n trying to acquire..

well...i guess..is better to let things goes naturally n we see how it ends

Exams over and holidays are here!!

2005-06-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

wow wow...i cant believe the last time i blog was in march and look at which month of the yr we r in now..haha...june...in fact coming to july...(emmy has been ngiamming me..hahah)

hmm...what to do..internet sucks in the place i am staying but no worries..cos i am heading back home for my winter holidays...cant wait...let me do a countdown..hmm..

1 more day to take off...cos i will flying in the morning...5 hrs flight and i am back home...hohoho..cant wait man..

just managed to finish packing..lotsa gifts to bring home..i guess the next time i blog..i am officially in singapore..hoho..i am back to eat eat and eat...

of cos..within these past months lotsa things happened..well..mark and i leading an individual life now...coping well...for me la..

i dunno for him ...i hope is fine..

i carried on with my life...learning new experiences and meeting new people...till then

The end of my long weekend

2005-03-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

sad to say..the long weekend is now over..and is back to university..tests.reports,scientific papers critiques are all due soon..my god..

looks like my weekend will be gone...other than going church..

well..i have a totally new experience of a good friday celebration here..never had such celebration..some pics which were taken

My new life

2005-03-25T10:44:00.000+08:00

Wow..look at the last time i blogged...it was before i left singapore...hmm..under some gentle reminder by my friend emily..i think it is time for me to update liao...hahhaa

yep yep..i am currently in a beautiful country Australia-Perth..not on holiday but studying...bt most of my friends think tt i am more of like holiday cim studying..haha..

not k..is pretty stressful to study here..the switch from polytechnic to university yr 3 is like sitting on mrt switching to bullet train...

but of cos..i am doing okie now..in fact..slowly getting better..u can imagine how my first week was...haha...attending wrong class..missing around campus..murdoch university is definately bigger than any local universities..in fact..it is the biggest university by land in western australia..

staying in perth is so relaxing...u dun even have to look at the time...u just do things at ur own pace...i am starting to fall in love with this place..

many things happened to me during this 1 month 2 weeks..all these make me realised what i really want in my life..and what i am expecting from it..

of cos,i finally understood mark's point of view...definately not easy..and how unreasonable i used to be...

lets just keep things this way..we will see if we both can see each other at the end of the line..

i gotta thank mark..u were the one who supported me and keep me going with ur encouragment..of cos..i got my whole lot of friends..

a big thank u to all those who were with me when i was undergoing the tough phase..i am okie now..

after removing all the distractions,my view became clearer...

i know wa is my aim ..and i will go for it...

okie..some pics i took here..
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i will carry on moving with or without you....

2005-02-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

i was reading back my previous posting...i kinda recalled how happy i was when i used to be..all the memories just came back...

reflections start to flow in when one of my bosses start to sing tt song...

how we started...
how we made fun of each other..
how we argued..
how we patched things up...
how we communicate..
how we grew closer and distance...

have u ever think what if i change the above doubts to a why instead of how...

why we started??
why we made fun of each other?
why we argued?
why we patched things up?
why we communicate?
why we grew closer and distance?

i doubt you will have all the answers at the back of your hand..probably be spechless too..

why i am willing to wait all these years for your return??
you should know all these answers...all these yrs ...pretty obvious..not bery hard to figure it out...

our 3 yrs and so on...

2005-01-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

hmm...2005 started and it means that mark dear and i have been together for 3 yrs and 2 months...ongoing..

both of us in fact just counted those days and have been talking to each other almost every other night...haha...sharing the old times and things we used to say...

he cant wait to return back and i cant wait for him to return...heehee..

but what to do..he still got one more year of hons be4 returning which means..we both will be graduating in the same yr..2006 ..

he is anticipating for my life to be like his..counting down to feb 12 too...

and recently i got news tt my best buddy in US is getting married too...oh boy..tt lucky gal-sharon and her beau-dave..u r a lucky chap..

feeling damn happy that i was the first to know the news and chose that down for her..i am so envy of her..
nvm...dear u got to work hard for your degree same as mine and we both will graduated together k...of cos la..u in LA while mine in aus..

oh boy..miss u so much..

well..i went to new asia bar with my colleagues last fri...had alot alot of drinks..

tried tt test tube babies..so nice but haha..chye chuan tt guy got high..after all the shots,the tubes etc...wa a fun night

Christmas Finally Came!!

2004-12-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Finally..the day which everyone has been anticipating for arrived!!

The season of giving...but for me..is more of the season of spending..

My eve was with mummy...The past few years,mummy's christmas eves have been staying at home...probbaly this year i might make it a bit more special for her..

Mummmy and daughter to spend Xmas eve together..

I met her @ Suntec City after work...Seriously,I was really freaking tired..almost wanted to go home immediatly..

But I endured..so waited for mummy to reach..

While waitng for her,I went shopping and got some of the essential stuff I need and I saw that big signboard over at La Senza...60%..OH MY GOD!!

I went in and start to ..u know wa..hahah...

The 1st time I stepped in was with Huiting...she was really spending alot..
Both of us love that shop and when i saw tt sale signboard..without further hestitation..i sms her and she like...DAMN,,U FOR REAL...WHEN IT END..I WANNA GO.. ETC..HAHAH

after all these shopping..mummy finally came and we had our christmas eve dinner at TUK TUK-the thai kitchen..

Trust me..the food is better than Thai Express..

after dinner..we went shop shop and happened to hear this song by Kelly Clarkson...I finally got tt title right..BREAK AWAY!!..

love the song man..

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Breakaway
Breakaway

i love the lyrics...

anyway..was looking through my digital camera and i realised i still got some photos which i have yet to upload...hmm..let see..

This photo was taken at the Teahouse@ China Square..Trust me..the food is super nice..it was a farwell dinner for me before i start my new phase ..really nice of mr chia to treat us..

and this is the place we drank and chill..Kazbar..very iranian style...

yep..next to me is nother other than mr chia and look at what my hand is holding..1 pint of hoegarden..from belgium..this information is given to me by my dear teacher-edwin..heehee..too bad..he is in hk now..if not we sure will go down there.

year end!! closing!! BONUS!!

2004-12-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

hiazzz....
31/12/2004 is approaqching very very soon...

when i was still a student..my feeling..anticipation...cos of what..year end party countdown with my friends,start of a new year etc..nothing but FUN!!

Now that I have stepped into a working society..year end means sales to rush...accounts to clear...everything to wrap up...all these equals to WORK,STRESS,PRESSURE etc...

and whats more..my line is the financial sector...the year end closing period...althought i am dealing with recruitment,i will still get to suffer a bit here and there of the stress and pressure..

hiaz...look at the time...10.58am..still got 2 hrs and 2 mins before i am offically off from work..

after work..i tjhink i will be heading down to town and get all the x mas gifts cum thank u gifts which i have yet to buy..so many ppl..how to buy..

dunno should buy...i really dont know..

everything is spend spend spend...haha...my secondary friends are asking me if i wanna join them..

fisherman village..hmm..i really dunoo..i seems to have lotsa things-to-do but i just cant finish them..haiz..

as i grows older..x mas eves,new yr eves are just another public holiday to me..
in fact,i would prefer a quieter,stay at home relax celebration..

xmas is really a season of giving...working in office...colleagues have been giving me chocolates,fruit cakes,cheese cakes,even cake lapis...i am getting fatter and fatter..oh gosh...

i can feel it...cos my pants are all getting too tight for me..damn...i must loss some weight...if not..i migh end up having no clothes to wear..

was passing by raffles city and saw the crowd in MANGO...my god...so many people till everybody had to queue up just to enter..

this way of shopping..fun?

after which..i was having dinner with kerry over @ Thai Express,Esplanade..and we start to talk...talk about the good and bad points of each other..seems that she hit the nails on my head direct..

my faults..all true...i am trying to change but is never easy..really not easy..

COUNT DOWN!! 7 DAYS BEFORE I OFFICIALLY END MY WORK..

OH BOY!! cant be earlier!!

i am back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

yep yep...i am back from the minei getaway which my dear kerry and i have been planning for such a LONG LONG TIME...we made it and had lotsa fun ..

seriously...the food was great...the shopping was great and the cafes hoping was the best..all thanks to the waiter,Kravin...u r damn cool...hahahha..we will find u again..really soon...

flashback of our getaway:

Seriously..this is really a damn cool trip..in fact..we will be planning for one more really soon before i fly..

yipee..cant wait..pan pacific puteri..we are coming again!!

back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:31:00.001+08:00

back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:31:00.000+08:00

2004-11-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

okie okie..i know i have not been blogging for a very long time..

let me try to cont from where i ended k..

alright..during the past 1 month..i went for a mini holiday with my parents to malaysia...cant imagine that this round..i am trekkign with them..so unexpected of them..

esp the rambutan incident...u can never imagine that i was standing on 1 side just taking photos while my 2 floks and my uncle and anutie were up hacking the trees..wa to do..i am the camera woman..hehee

the whole 5 days..we went from singapore to kuala lumpur to tanjong malim to ipoh and port dickson..all over malaysia..my mom almost wanted to go to penang cos it is only 1 and half drive to penang from ipoh..

of cos..not forgetting my mum's home town..tanjong malim..really nice place..small chinese town...everyday,every night..my uncles and anuties will be driving us to eat supper and drink..and i was in fact very surprised to find that in such a small town..there is also a clubbing street...lotsa yuppies ard..of cos..i drank quite a lot..not forgetting their special coffee ice cream...yummy..damn nice and cheap...
RM 2

there is even a hot spring over there..but dun to wrong time management...we had to forgo tt part..

tanjong malim brings back alot of fond memories..

i used to tell someone that i will bring him there one day or at least before his enlistment cos i know he will love tt place..

totally out of singapore..we used to imagine ourselves backpacking there..is till could rem the discussions we used to have while we were on the bus..

backpacking tanjong malim first then we will go backpacking in aus..and our final destinatiom..tibet..

our dreams..but we r not fulfilling it ..he has been enlisted and i am working...

he knew that i am leaving soon..and i got a surprise tt he will be posted overseas too...probably aus too...cos nsf got their base there..

i hope he will made it thought for his tue's interview...i will be awaiting his good news..

okie okie...let me show u all some of the pics which were taken during my holiday trip..

yummy noodles which mummy and i went to seek for it again..but haiz..no longer there :(
sisterhoodhippest granny ard in town!!

if u can never ever step into my world

2004-11-28T02:25:00.000+08:00

I know that it's over
and I can't believe we're through
they say that time's a healer (yeah)
and I'm better without you
it's gonna take time I know
but I'll get over you
(chorus: look at my life
look at my heart
I have seen them fall apart
now I'm ready to rise again
jus look at my hopes
look at my dreams
building bridges from these scenes
now I'm ready to rise again)
caught up in my thinking
(yeah)
like a prisoner in my mind
you pose so many questions
that the truth was hard to find
I better think twice I know
that I'll get over you
(chorus)
much time has passed between us
do you still think of me at all?
my world of broken promises
you won't catch me when I fall
(chorus)

late late night

2004-10-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

is e weekend again....i have been looking forward to it althought i did not have much plans..

in e end,arrangments start to flow in..
finally met up with my magnum seniors after such a long time...we had steamboat over at marina south..has been some time i last saw them..we definately had fun-cooking food,talking and definately bitching as usual..hahaha..

too bad..i could not stay longer cos someone else was waiting with the movie tickets for me..

we watched old boy..trust me..the storyline is pretty disturbing..i really had some side effects after the show,in fact i cant sleep...

the night weather was rainy..but damn..we went to tt food center located at tt carpark to have our supper..

very " romantic" night..sitting in the rain,under the tent,eating and drinking ..back to the 1980s..haha..we were talking abt that..

i dun understand..when we start to sit down,we will start to talk about topics which i dun like to bring up..things which i have been shuffling aside...

wa to do..ppl are concerned over tt matter..

after supper,i headed back home and wen online and saw dear..surprisingly..

the night before,he was supposed to be having a party with his friends..and i thought he is the kind whereby the night is still young...hahaha..

so sweet of dear to come online and talk to me about his party and we ended up logging out of msn and talked on the phone..but dear if u r reading this..u r really very forgetful..how can u leave ur hp like tt ard..

u see..now no handphone and need to buy a new 1...yet u still could behave as cool and calm..

sorry dear,i know u wanted to meet me today but i think i rather u go for ur classes then to miss them k...we can always meet up another day ..

fixed??

2004-10-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time i tried to upload some pics into my blog..

tried a few times but dun seems to be functioning..haiz..

the birthday cake...a 3 kg very fruitty cake..full of blue berries

happy that most of my best buddies made it..still got somemore photos which i have yet to upload..

wait for part 2 then..

finally 21 !!

2004-10-17T13:51:00.000+08:00

well..officially a 21..made some decisions for a start!!

i am carrying on with my life without u..got the message..
but seriously..a big thank u to u cos u taught me alot of things and made me realised who are the people who really care for me and there for me..

all the best dude!!

weird isnt it...9 months ago.you were the one telling me tt but 9 months later,i am telling it back to you but of cos without the last wish u told me..

i cant be the 1 sitting beside you while u are driving anymore...

take care..

alright..

the party is over and lets have a look at all the pics which were taken on tt day itself..

first the cake..a 3 kg cake with blue berry filling in the middle..

the early bird award was given to none other than my dearest cousin who came all the way from malaysia..

if we have early birds,definately without furtherado,we also have the late birds..but better late then never right..

things were back as before

2004-10-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

it has been 9 months i last saw him..
same person..a change of a sport car..me a working adult...

he was always there-in my heart..the old days were happening 9 months later..

driving ard singapore at night,
enjoying the nice sea breeze,
back to the place we first met,
the usual hangout we used to go...

u ask if i am willing to be beside you again..
ur approach is the same as what you used 10 months ago...while u were driving along ECP..

u still remember the things we used to talk about..
the dreams we used to make..
the trips which we used to plan...
the places we used to go..

i wished i could say a yes..
i would wan to accompany you everytime u drive ard singapore..holding onto ur hand while we stroll down the beaches..
be the one who will suppport ur goals,ur dreams,ur wishes..

i would be ever readily to support u whenever u need me..
but how about you?

seems that your job is the barrier..i understand ur diffculties...frequently out in the sea..travelling here and there..
busy and tight working schedule..

i need your attention..i am not that independent as what u think...
i dun expect you to be reporting to me everyday..it not about how often we see each other..it is the quality that matters..

days without you around is terrible...worrying about your safety is horrible..

we started 10 months ago without really understanding each other..thinking that things would turn out well..but we were wrong..

wrong timing then..how about now...i dunno..

how long can all these last?
i also dunno...
i really dunno...

maybe you can tell me...

what kind of world are we living in..

2004-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

one of my best buddy ended her so many years relationship..

when i spoke to her,she just tell me..lost the feeling..

she used to tell me if ever a day,the both of them ended..she will not be able to take it...

one really dont know what happen in the future..

will we ever be the same person as we used to be?
be with the person who once promised to protect us etc..

fate i guess..

i have been feeling rather borther by alot of things lately..
lack of sleep and rest ..maybe...cos i have been staying out pretty late e past few days..

to chill with my friends.

damn vexxed up..when should i really let my boss know that i am leaving?should i wait for him to come and look for me or i go and look for him...

i really dont know...

i guess i have been too stressful lately..

so sicked...took a 2 days mc...my whole system is breaking down..and legs sure go soft..

even walkling can fall down..so clumby..

nothing better to do..

2004-09-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

my old pc is finally restored!!
of cos..all e credits should go to my dearest brother..he spent the past few nights solving all the problems...

but he concluded and told me..NEVER TO USE THE COMP AGAIN...seems tt i am always the one giving the comp problem...haha..

looking thought my old files...i found alot of photos which we used to take when we got nothing to do..

i always remember this photo..it was taken using clay's first camera phone...tt samsung 180 camera...

being nerdy and never really ever touch a camera phone..my best buddy and i...start to use the camera function and took this pic just before class...

i sure missed those days..

this gal..my soulmate,my studymate,my roommate and definately my bitching parnter..soon we will be staying together and maybe get sicked of each other for the next 1 yr plus...

who is she..tts her

look at the face...e just out of bed look...haha..

and while looking through...i cant believe i still have this pic..
so many yrs back...look at clay's hair and mine..still rebonded tt time..haha..

no more rebonded hair,no more colored hair..now is normal and black...

and worse..my first project presentation pic...with my xclusive gang...

we had the best time together..
cheryl,flor and me working..
paul sreving the nation and clay..serving the nation soon...

the 5 of us...always hanging together..shopping la...eating la...play pool..

we were still young..still can rem them singing my 18 birthday song out at raffles place mrt...loud and sweet..no1 ever did tt be4...of cos...they sure did certaib thing which i cant forget forever!!

boring wednesday

2004-09-22T15:33:00.000+08:00

someone whom i have longed seen e mailed me..
when i saw his name in my mailbox..

lotsa memories came back...
those days...driving trips to beaches...around our neighbourhood...cant help but to miss him alot..

i thought he was forgetten and deleted from my memory till today..but he was not.he never was deleted before...

it is good to receive his e mail..
he is still e same as before...working at the same place..life is pretty much e same for him..

dont know why..i cant help to feel happy to see his e mail..at least i know that he is doing well..

let me see..it has been like...1 yr we broke up...almost 9 odd months we last saw each other..

e break up of the relationship is pretty mutual..
none of us cheated behind each other's back..nothin at all..i guess the reason for the breakup-e lack of communication.

i always assumed...i thought..were the main cause..
never

finally friday...

2004-09-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

The day which i have been looking forward finally arrived!!!
Friday..
let's see..i am left with 1 hr and 22 mins and it's time for me to party...oh boy..so excited..

early in the mroning...i spend $19 just to get to work...my heart practically cracked...seriously..cracked..not cos of 19 but cos of just $3 going for the ERP...sucky man..

morning was busy with meeting..
the monthly BOSS meeting...as usual...proposals to rush..new rules set..etc..u name it all...i got them out...

haiz..i had a really bad start for the day...deadlines to meet...quotas to clear..

even my colleague says tt being my position is one tough and stressful 1...

i cant wait to see the clock strike 6pm..

let me get out of this boring and stressful office and enjoy myself..

hmm..should i head tonight...harry's? or...

really need to find a good place to chill out man..have been a rough patch the past few days..

someone whom i thought i loss contact came back...i thought he was deleted from my "database" but i still felt tt bad..

on my way back home..i purposely walked..to clear my thoughts before i met kerry...

is the exact path which someone accompanied me be4...

how i wished tt we have a button called the "delete" button so we can just removed all the crap away..haiz

winter in my office?

2004-09-16T15:22:00.000+08:00

time check...it is 3.25pm..

and look at what i am doing now...looking through all old records..

office is extremely cold today...had to put on my jacket to keep myself warm..

kinda wonder how i am going to endure the weather in perth..

staring at my computer,i cant help to love my current job..

ppl can be extremely nice to u..

initially..when i first started this job...i told myself..well..it is just a job to help u earn tt extra cash..but now seems tt i am feeling a little sad to let go...

my fav colleague was telling me not to go...well well..on the other hand...she wans me to go..at elast for my future..

i guess..i will missed her alot..alot..the fun times we had..chatting in my office...lunch together

and the next best thing is..i am looking forward for my holiday..finally..after working..haha...

i guess it will be a backpacking trip to some island in malaysia...
a getaway..finally...oh man..

kinda vexxed with which island to go...tioman or bersa..

rainy rainy day

2004-09-14T11:46:00.000+08:00

time check...11.48 am...soon to be my lunch hr...yipee..

the weather is good..cool and rainy...i love it esp when i am in e office...
keeping myself warm in my jacket...so cozy feeling...

the sky is so nice to stare at now...
my room view...

a row of private housings and my bottle of sand..

i took it out from tt 500 ml full bottle which my friend gave me...trust me..it is really a FULL bottle of sand...but its alright...cos half of it is at home while e other half..accompanying me in my office..

and suddenly..i realised..the famous linkway which was supposed to be build is actually right in front of me..

i never raelly paid much attention to my window view till today..wow..no wonder all my collegues love to come into my office to look at the window..cos it is so beautiful...heehee

still waiting for the clock to strike 6..haiz

2004-09-13T17:49:00.000+08:00

still got a few mins be4 is 6pm...
so sianz..

spend an hr interviewing 1 candidate...but SUCCESS!!
i managed to convince him to sign up for exams...haha...so proud of myself...slowly loving the kick to meet more ppl....

but damn...doing interviews can be really tiring...talking non stop...my throat really hurts

well well..it is worth it...

a boring monday..thinking of wherethe should i go meet kerry for coffee or just head home since i might be waiting to pass some stuff to someone...

maybe i should just go home first n change...slacking in my office wear sucks big time...

sometimes...it feels good to find some joy in the mids of a busy busy office..

ppl whom u think is fierce are not tt evil after all...a small favour in fact can win their hearts...

the smile u received is really satisfying...

haha...then be4 then..we were chatting with ting n her friend...so funny...talking abt each other's boyfriends...whose got better body la..etc..typical gals..wa to do...

WE R GALS anyway..haha..

in a matter of few years,we will be talking abt ur husband,my kids etc..

part n parcel of life...

oh ya...during the weekend,i saw someone whom used to be very very important to me...someone whom used to be part of my life...

wa should i say..hmm...i dun feel tt angry or pissed when i see him..maybe u were right..time will heal tt cut u gave to my heart..

in fact,i was happy to see him after such a long time...good to see tt he is doing well afterall..
still in a piece...haha...

however,his appearance kinda feel like a refresh button on the computer screen..

those memories,the parting scene ...all just came back...

haha..those were the days..we have both changed..tts of cos for sure....
guess i have to end here now...is finally 6.03pm..

I AM ON MY WAY HOME!!!

in my boring boring office

2004-09-13T14:54:00.000+08:00

look at the time...is only 2.57pm...

oh man...still got 3 more hours before i can go home or at least get out of this boring office..

morning was very very peaceful cos no one ard..there was a seminar with a woo wa name..POWER UP!!

all the managers went down..i would say at least most la..enough to make the office peaceful..

work has been extremely stressful..this morning.i just saw the recruitment competition which is on going for the whole company..thank god..my branch is the top..if not...tts the end for me..

stress stress stress...
lotsa things to worry...things just kept adding to my work load..but dun seems to see tt my pay is increasing..haha..

well..is okie...at least i got a job..

lets refresh...wa was my weekend...i just wrote a very brief outline in the previous blog..

hmm..sat night was at chalet with my secondary classmates...one of my 24/7 buddy turned 21..so happy for her..grand n big celebration...

make me kinda think of how should i celebrate mine...i guess..mine will be a quiet and boring 1 cos i still be working tt day...sad..

turning 21 is pretty stressful..all e responsiblities..

haiz..well...after the celebration..i went down to boat quay and watched tt MAN U vs dunno wa name team..it was a draw..

quite a boring match..was stoning n drinking...

the fun part started when my friends sang my favourite song..leaving on a jet plane..but turn out the version was john denver..so high ..but they were very sporting...

they sang the whole song ..which really me laugh till i tear..so funny guy friends i have..haha...

i think the whole ktv room ppl were staring at us...but oh well..it was fun to feel malu once in a blue moon.

had been a long long time i had so much fun..

my weekend

2004-09-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

has been a late nights weekends for me..

e previous weekend was dancing in dbl o cos it was my friend's 21st birthday..

and this weekend was drinking,singing and watching the man u match with the guys...

mood has been not very good recently..

like what my dear kerry says:

A lady only visit a pub for 2 reasons
either she is extremely happy or she is extremely moody..
guess mine is the later..

she was a good buddy...accompany me during this rough time...

fri was meeting clayton...the 1/3 of the bitches..haha..he the horrible guy...has been like dunno how many many months we last met up...tts why we named our dinner as the fellowship of the bitches...

haha...caught up with so many things...watever nanmo...u name it all..we are still full of our crazy ideas and chatting abt this body tt illness while having dinner...cool right...ppl with a weak stomach cant take it..haha..

after tt..brought tt clay to my fav or should i say our fav beancurd lane...
memories came back again..cant help it..

same place,same beancurd but ppl change...no longer as happy as before...what happen?i dont know...

there has been this saying tt..if u r happy ,everything taste good..might be true..cos tt night beancurd does not taste as good as before..

things are set

2004-08-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

my weekend is coming to an end...so sad..tml is another day in my office and as usual..busy like a bee..

my whole weekend..staying at home to watch e olympics..
from badminton to swimming and to boxing..my weekend is really fixed to the tv set..

come to think of it...later i will be watching the badminton game..so excited..tml i will be so tired at work..what to do..i have been waiting for the games for such a long time..i could still remember that the last games..i was studying for my GCE 'O's..

and now...i am working..haha..i am 4 yrs older now..opps..

i happen to set my eyes upon this photo...well..in a matter of few months...i will be there personally to look that tt country...cant help to feel excited

my parents are excited for me...preparing me to leave the country..i think i will be getting my lab top really soon...must adapt to the new it thingy..

was looking thorough my pics..saw this pic which was taken with kerry..haha..cant believe it right..we have been buddies for so many years yet this is e one and only pic we took..haha..so bad..but nvm..we have arrange to go for the photo shoot with 2 other members of the gang before we start to fly off..
jums will be in US,naj in army while me in perth..left only kerry in singapore...
haiz..i going to miss her really badly..

i was talking to rowena this afternoon...both of us were talking abt our old days..haha..sound damn old right...happen to look back at the old pics..woah..we look really nerdy ..u bet man..check this pic..haha..
our final yr project grp pic...

and tt clayton..heartless guy..never even borther to contact or meet up...wa e...evil man..but he is busy..BUSY HOLIDAYING..such a lucky chap...

left ard 30 mins and the match which i have been waiting for is coming...so excited

the song which represent my current mood

2004-08-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

Seems that this song really describe my mood...
I have been listening to it 24/7..
It is also featured in the terminal's original sound track..

The lyrics are so beautiful..

Ah-ah-ah-ahhh
Ah-ah-ah-ahhh

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go.
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breaking it's early morn
The taxi's waiting he's blowin' his horn
Already, I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause I'm leaving on a jetplane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

Ah-ah-ah-ahhh

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now they don't mean a thing

Everyplace I go I'll think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time oh let me kiss you
Then close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say

I'm leaving on a jetplane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go.
But I'm leaving on a jetplane

Leaving on a jetplane (repeat)

I fell in love with the song while watching the thriller of the terminal..
Alot of thoughts came into my mind while watching the thriller..not about the movie but our life..

Seems that our life is really like a terminal and people just check in to your terminal...passer by friends just leave once they check in..while there are some who remained in "our terminal" for a very long long time..

Of cos,tt includes the nasty people...people whom you just wanT them to get out of ur life...a new phase of life means a new flight to somewhere...
I will be taking my new flight soon..I know my destination but so ...
I dont know what lies ahead for me..I have to go...left with no choice...

I wonder if my "flight" is a direct stop or one which will have manay stop-overs before I finally reach my destination..

Some may find that my behaviour is childish but try and put yourself in my shoes before you want to use tt word on me..

while packing my stuff...

2004-08-08T16:59:00.000+08:00

well well...another stony sunday i guess....waiting for time to pass cos i am going to give my dad a treat later..
was seraching through my old stuff and found this...

These were my 18th and 19th birthdays' present.Although is just a simple soft toy but they are very important to me...
and definately this pic..
hhaha

just sms my class to have a get along bitching session again..my god..look at the time now...need to get ready..will come back to update tonight then..

after ample hours of sleep

2004-08-08T11:31:00.000+08:00

Looking at my seashells collection,finally managed to learn how to upload it into my blog..
It has been a very very long time I managed to sleep for so so long...My Sat was just stoning at home,reading,surfing the net,checking my e mails,learning to upload my blog..haha and slacking..

Working life is so hectic...busy like a bee from the start I step into my office..

Maybe I should say that I am more then contented with my lifestyle now..
Although no more late nights clubbing and pubbing,now I would prefer a much more relax yet fruitful way to enjoy myself...maybe a ,idnight movie with my gang or chilling over @ a cafe till e wee hrs...

Chatting and bitching about each others working life..
Seems that F4 always get to meet weird ppl..

Kerry always have her own collection of ppl who get on her nerves..her stories never fails to entertain us,Naj also have his own collection to share,Jumius of cos and now me..I just added some to our bitching sessions...haha...

Sometimes,I just cant help to feel weird..Friends whom I always contact seems to loss contact while friends whom I seldom contact are coming back to me..

Sharon just came back from USA...met up with her for dinner..she is one happy lady..contented with her life and definately with tt cute boyfriend of hers..haha

Let me count...I think I have not seen her for over 3 yrs...so nice that she remembers me when she came bacxk for holidays..as usual..we met up and chat and talk about our future...haha...even plan about her wedding...haha..

Sharon kind of gave me some answers towards the questions i have been asking myself regards my decison to leave singapore..

the choice which i have made and now i am trying to avoid it..well..it is my future i am placing my bet and the chips are my parents hopes and definately money..

I really hope that this gamble is a good 1 and i will come back and make my parents proud of me...

times really flies fast...in a matter of weeks,i will have to start to plan my trip..e stuff i have to bring,my visa etc...cant believe that it is coming so so soon

inside my heart,i seriously dun feel like leaving singapore..i will be stepping out of my comfort zone and into a new zone which i dun know the outcome..like what naj tell me :
"a ship in the harbour is safe, but ships are not meant for that"

i guess it is time for me to leave the harbour and make full use of it...

look at me now

2004-07-25T01:35:00.000+08:00

wa...went was my last entry into my blog...has been such a long long time..i think i cant remember the last time..reading back,it was like a month ago...

yep..have been very busy with work...

got a new job and saw my own office..pretty cool..e view from my window sure destress me whenever i felt sad or stress.my own cosy corner.

my office...how do i describe it..small and nice..my telemarketers love to come in and sit in cos it is not cold..i guess it is e only room with its own temperature setting..haha..

intially,when i first step in.I find my room kinda look a bit too messy.like a store room...after my mini spring cleaning..it sure looks good..

everyday is a busy day for me.Thank god that my bosses are pretty good ppl...always brighten my day with their jokes.They sure look after me well..

yesterday was my company's sports day.went down to support my bosses..watching them play soccer reminds me of magnum..

wanted to go clubbing with my friends but i think i was too tired man..now old woman

finally...one of my f4 member has booked out...finally...

tonight meeting kerry for a midnight movie again..haha..as usual...our sat activity...

maybe tml i will go clubbing since there is no work on mon..heehee...has been a long long time i went clubbing man...must enjoy myself and de stress myself..but must wait for tt guy to wake up...he just came back from out field...

has been such a long time i went out for night activity...maybe cos i see e $$ i have to spend..
maybe it is time i go for it..heehee

finally got a job

2004-06-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

well the day arrived finally..i am working soon..pretty excited...although is just a customer service assistant..

a totally new environment which i purposely wanna try..
mon will be my face day..and i hope everything goes smooth or at least...let me learn..

hmm..have been talking to my friend...advising him this n tt..seems tt the guy whom i used to know actually can be very vexxed up with love..

maybe regret his decision loh..make me think back and look at myself..

mistakes i made...decisions i made tt hurt ppl...
they must have felt tt way..
that why...always know 1 thing..for every decision we made,we must be brave to face e consequences.
consequences can be for the better or worse..some will be relieve but for this friend of mine..regret..

have i ever regret anything i did...yes..alot..alot..especially 1 very very cherished person whom i met when i was in yr 1..

he was my 24/7 cheerleader,supporter and listener whenever i feel down..
his smile and attention were always encouraging..esp when we are busy with our stuff..
he will be e sweetest guy..buying me bubble tea and bring it to me to my clubhouse..accompany me go here and there..

e sweet memories he gave me..unforgetable..
during our cycling trip..e pebbles and shell..turn out he was my angel..very unexpected..

and all these ended..cos i never cherish him and never know how to express my feelings...whenever i walk from bugis to suntec...i will rem the times we had...e korean noodle stall we sat down n ate on v day..

things became to wa it is now cos of my own doing...we r not even talking now..dunno even if we still counted friends..

i know things cant be the same as be4
but i will learn from this lesson..
i will learn..
i wished him all e best...

i miss them so much

2004-06-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

today finally made my first trip down to school after such a long period of time...

ngee ann still look e same...but magnum is improving in such fast speed..if i were to be a newbie..i doubt i have the courage to join..haha

saw the bangkok uni cheerleaders...has been such a long time i last saw them...tear,joice,kaew,ning,zee and some of the new juniors...
siting down there looking at them..there is some saddness inside me..i cant help but feel a little sad...cos i see the laughter..the joy...make me miss the bu ppl whom i am so close to...marth,fluke,kit,por,pop and aud...i miss them so much..

how i wished they were here too...

i know is hard cos is expensive for them to travel to singapore..the currency exchange...i missed e happiness and fun we used to share together..staying together and playing at night...

phing and toon were so cute...gave me a hp chain...tts very nice of them..always surprised us with gifts...i will wan to get them something too...maybe must go down shopping them can see la...

Have you ever..

2004-06-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

monday..woke up really late today..ard 2pm...

maybe cos of the past few late nights..yesterday just went for my secondary school friend's 22th birthday...a sec old days gathering..

has been a long time i last saw everyone...what to do..when all of them chose to go Tp while I am e only 1 who chose Np..so far from my house..east to west..

all of us had a good chat..about old times...of cos..all of us now got our diff parnters..

most of us chose the working path...seems that i am the only 1 leaving for studies...

just had a talk with my parents regarding my further studies...
i dun understand why whenever i start to talk abt the plans..my tears can just flow down..

tears of fears..i thought tt i could take it easy just leaving the country and study..have a good time in a foreign country...but things dun seems tt way...

in fact..i am worried abt alot of things..worried abt my life there,my education etc..make me feel so weak..and seriously...i even got plans to give up on my education..

y study till so tiring...so much things to consider..

i know i cant think tt way...cos is for the good of my future..cant blamed me..i am typing this blog just few mins after i talked to them..

very vexxing

2004-06-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

really has been a long time i last blog...

sorry man...has been out...being a tour guide..showing my relatives ard..

heehee..i took my fav ride a few days ago...the bum boat...cruising rd the singapore river..the places which were so memorable to me..the merlion,fullerton hotel etc

the view is still as beautiful as before but the feeling is different..

tiring man..bring the little kids ard...from singapore sci centre to esplanade..the kids can really walk...i almost lost my way cos too long never go sci centre..sci centre changes alot..n managed to catch tt transit of venus

oh man..has been feeling damn vexxed

recevied some bad news...

lazy lazy

2004-06-03T00:37:00.000+08:00

piangz..

look at the date of my last entry...tsk tsk...so long...really very lazy

hmm...came back from malaysia a few days ago..was a fun trip
extremely fun 1...with the kids ard...

kids are so young and active...i wished time could turn back..haha..

finally got my graduation ceremony package..haha..25 june..

finally...

A wedding festival lately??

2004-05-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

finally back home after a long day at granny's place..

has been quite some time i last saw her...n played with little sinhai...so cute..haha...i think huh..has been really quite a while i last carried him..cos he now feels haevier..haha

while at granny's place...saw my auntie and uncle from malaysia..
good news..my eldest cousin is finally getting married....i am so happy for him...

cos i knew his gf when i was like still in primary sch..hmm...the two of them have been together for like over 10 yrs...so long...

which means..i need to go back to malaysia..haiz...not very excited to go inside...dunno why..

seems tt ppl ard me are getting married one by one...end of this month..i still got another wedding to attend...busy busy na..

june is coming soon..come to think of it..since the wedding is held during the first week of june..

back home finally

2004-05-16T02:52:00.000+08:00

hmm...tonight has been a great one with my f3..too bad jumius had to fix his car...could not join us..heehee

i caught Troy for the second time..but then..experience turned out to be a total different..

my first time watching troy was with Dearest Rowena..haha...at our fav cinema...Cathay Cineleisure..of cos,2 gals excited cos the movie is staring one of the best actors ard...heehee...

both of us were going goo and gaga..haha...setas were great...
but my second visit..hmmm

my f3 chose the FRONT row..hahaha..Row A...has been quite a while i watched a movie siting so front...haha..

I think e first time i say row A was watching Pearl Habour..yrs back man...but i guess is e friends who accompanied u which made row A feels like some far end row...haha

kerry,naj and me...enjoyed e movie alot...should have booked e tickets long long ago...well..the movie was a last min thingy..cos i dun feel like getting home so damn early...haha

well...i went to places which i used to have such fond memories..

the esplanade,merlion and marina sq...cant help thinking back of the good and fun times i used to have..

as mentioned..they are memories...things tt were held long long ago...if we can go back to those times...IF IF IF..

well...is okie na...time will heal everything...

but as said..i promised myself tt i will make time to go down the places and take pics of them..so when e day arrived tt i am leaving...at least i still got the photos which can make me smile

my first entry

2004-05-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

hmm...my first entry into my e-stonygal.com..haha..
Right now...a damn warm sat afternoon..feeling now....my nick..stony..haha..

woke up at 12 i think...all the beepings of my messages..calls...cant have some peaceful sleep..

kerry just called to see if i wanna meet up with her..hmmm....has been a long time i last saw her...i think...3 weeks??

sure to have lotsa to catch up..all the crapping..

well..ytd met up with my magnum friends and their bfs to siloso beach..has been like a few months i saw them..peiyan,huting,xiaohui and sab...seems tt all of them r doing very well...

cant help to agree tt time really flies fast..3 yrs ago...we just started out cheerleading...know nothing abt cheerleading...

wat's a lib..wat's an extention..and look at us now...accomplish flyers and bases..haha...3 yrs of competition..

damn tiring man...just playing fisbee and stoning ard...my energy level drained.. plus i was e latest to reach the beach..opps...

e world is so small..i happened to see my bro,robert over at siloso beach..he was playing next to us all along and i did not realise it..till i happened to see him near e toilet..wa a place man..haha

got to admit na...getting older..haha

hmm..monday got class bbq..cant wait man..can eat and see my friends...n fri...finally...NUH dinner and dance...