stonygal's stony days..

thursday..memories..thoughts..

2005-08-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I

run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?

Chorus:
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had

The best I ever had
Best I ever...

missing my buddy

2005-08-25T02:46:00.000+08:00

I was having a good stroll this evening...i seems to like to walk after i came back from perth..but this time..the feeling is different..very different..

in perth..whenever i strolled..i will have my best buddy,rowena ard..we strolled from summer,autumn and winter...miss spring..haiz..summer we complained about the heat...,autumn we complained the wind...,winter we complained the rain...,end of chapter..i ended my chapter in perth...very heartbreaking..

u have been a very very good buddy...we spend alot of special moments together....the first flight we took to perth...tears and joy..u named it all..memories will be hard to forget..

i always remember our first solo trip up north...damn brave..our drinking sessions under the starry night in monkey mias dolphines resort..the cold ice beer..chatting,sharing stories..staying in tt backpackers hotel...travelled 950km on the bus with u..the nice pasta we had in kalbari...till today..i still can remember the taste of tt pasta..fireworks ...

Back In Singapore

2005-08-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Finally..after 6 months..I am finally back to my homeland..SINGAPORE..haha..

lotsa things happened..but well..is over and lets start a new chapter..let me see..maybe i should change my blog appearance..

alrighty..i had a nice farewell party in perth..thanks to all those who make things happen...

It was sad to go..seriously..all of u left a very deep impression in my life..

bad stormy weather in perth

2005-08-14T10:47:00.000+08:00

i had a great time in church ytd..thanks to jean..n many things had happened during this short period of time..good and bad...definately rough patch of my life..

too long for me to explain..

jean gave me this bookmark..i love it alot..probably share with all of u out there..

Take Time for Friendship

Take time to make a friend.
It is the opportunity to love.

Take time to help a friend.
It is the foundation of goodwill.

Take time to listen to a friend.
It is the key to understanding.

Take time to laugh with a friend.
It is the way to multiply joy.

Take time to encourage a friend.
It is a chance to make a difference.

Take time to comfort a friend.
It is the occasion for loving-kindness.

Take time to call God your friend.
He is the wellspring of all fellowship.

Jill Wolf

what is the defination of open minded?

2005-07-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

I was talking to a friend and finally snapped...

he really pushed me to my maximun limit...with all his own point of views without realising tt he is stepping all over me...

i thought i could tolerate and endure with his own point of view..but somehow he just snapped me tonight..

for someone who is brought up in such a weird family ...i always tell myself to be gracious with him but things seem to get out of hand.n i finally told him off..asking him to get off my back..

n stop judging my friends with ur tt narrow minded point of view..i know i am bad la...i should not tell him off but i will just exploded one day in aus..is better i exploded today..

i just wanna tell him..get a life dude

Counting Down

2005-06-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho...I am left with less than 24 hr to take off....and before you know..I am back in Singapore...

Just woke up,what a nice weather to sleep in..but cant gotta make my way down to the Chancellory to get some administrative matters done and maybe down to Freo with Alwin cos he said he got things to buy..no idea what kind of things..

well well..i just changed my driving exam date to 8/8/05...i have taken up the challenge but somehow i am not confidence at all...has been some time i last drove manual..hahah..

after freo..probably going to someone's place to see how he bake...wonder what cakes he will be baking this time...my my..look at e time..i will be late...i will write more when i am back home..i cant wait

sending off..

2005-06-24T03:35:00.000+08:00

hmm...just got back from the airport after sending off 2 of my good friends who really look after me when i am in perth...well well..who r they...clarence and ben..they r really good people...taking care of me when i am in perth...clarence of cos for his time for fetching me ard and ben..always there to send me anywhere ...

well..the first night without them around...hmm...well..things will be okie cos i will be seeing them really soon..sunday..

well..i realised tt one does not need alot of time to know someone...we can be attracted to someone by their character..good and outstanding character which lotsa people wish to have n trying to acquire..

well...i guess..is better to let things goes naturally n we see how it ends

Exams over and holidays are here!!

2005-06-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

wow wow...i cant believe the last time i blog was in march and look at which month of the yr we r in now..haha...june...in fact coming to july...(emmy has been ngiamming me..hahah)

hmm...what to do..internet sucks in the place i am staying but no worries..cos i am heading back home for my winter holidays...cant wait...let me do a countdown..hmm..

1 more day to take off...cos i will flying in the morning...5 hrs flight and i am back home...hohoho..cant wait man..

just managed to finish packing..lotsa gifts to bring home..i guess the next time i blog..i am officially in singapore..hoho..i am back to eat eat and eat...

of cos..within these past months lotsa things happened..well..mark and i leading an individual life now...coping well...for me la..

i dunno for him ...i hope is fine..

i carried on with my life...learning new experiences and meeting new people...till then

The end of my long weekend

2005-03-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

sad to say..the long weekend is now over..and is back to university..tests.reports,scientific papers critiques are all due soon..my god..

looks like my weekend will be gone...other than going church..

well..i have a totally new experience of a good friday celebration here..never had such celebration..some pics which were taken

My new life

2005-03-25T10:44:00.000+08:00

Wow..look at the last time i blogged...it was before i left singapore...hmm..under some gentle reminder by my friend emily..i think it is time for me to update liao...hahhaa

yep yep..i am currently in a beautiful country Australia-Perth..not on holiday but studying...bt most of my friends think tt i am more of like holiday cim studying..haha..

not k..is pretty stressful to study here..the switch from polytechnic to university yr 3 is like sitting on mrt switching to bullet train...

but of cos..i am doing okie now..in fact..slowly getting better..u can imagine how my first week was...haha...attending wrong class..missing around campus..murdoch university is definately bigger than any local universities..in fact..it is the biggest university by land in western australia..

staying in perth is so relaxing...u dun even have to look at the time...u just do things at ur own pace...i am starting to fall in love with this place..

many things happened to me during this 1 month 2 weeks..all these make me realised what i really want in my life..and what i am expecting from it..

of cos,i finally understood mark's point of view...definately not easy..and how unreasonable i used to be...

lets just keep things this way..we will see if we both can see each other at the end of the line..

i gotta thank mark..u were the one who supported me and keep me going with ur encouragment..of cos..i got my whole lot of friends..

a big thank u to all those who were with me when i was undergoing the tough phase..i am okie now..

after removing all the distractions,my view became clearer...

i know wa is my aim ..and i will go for it...

okie..some pics i took here..
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i will carry on moving with or without you....

2005-02-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

i was reading back my previous posting...i kinda recalled how happy i was when i used to be..all the memories just came back...

reflections start to flow in when one of my bosses start to sing tt song...

how we started...
how we made fun of each other..
how we argued..
how we patched things up...
how we communicate..
how we grew closer and distance...

have u ever think what if i change the above doubts to a why instead of how...

why we started??
why we made fun of each other?
why we argued?
why we patched things up?
why we communicate?
why we grew closer and distance?

i doubt you will have all the answers at the back of your hand..probably be spechless too..

why i am willing to wait all these years for your return??
you should know all these answers...all these yrs ...pretty obvious..not bery hard to figure it out...

our 3 yrs and so on...

2005-01-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

hmm...2005 started and it means that mark dear and i have been together for 3 yrs and 2 months...ongoing..

both of us in fact just counted those days and have been talking to each other almost every other night...haha...sharing the old times and things we used to say...

he cant wait to return back and i cant wait for him to return...heehee..

but what to do..he still got one more year of hons be4 returning which means..we both will be graduating in the same yr..2006 ..

he is anticipating for my life to be like his..counting down to feb 12 too...

and recently i got news tt my best buddy in US is getting married too...oh boy..tt lucky gal-sharon and her beau-dave..u r a lucky chap..

feeling damn happy that i was the first to know the news and chose that down for her..i am so envy of her..
nvm...dear u got to work hard for your degree same as mine and we both will graduated together k...of cos la..u in LA while mine in aus..

oh boy..miss u so much..

well..i went to new asia bar with my colleagues last fri...had alot alot of drinks..

tried tt test tube babies..so nice but haha..chye chuan tt guy got high..after all the shots,the tubes etc...wa a fun night

Christmas Finally Came!!

2004-12-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Finally..the day which everyone has been anticipating for arrived!!

The season of giving...but for me..is more of the season of spending..

My eve was with mummy...The past few years,mummy's christmas eves have been staying at home...probbaly this year i might make it a bit more special for her..

Mummmy and daughter to spend Xmas eve together..

I met her @ Suntec City after work...Seriously,I was really freaking tired..almost wanted to go home immediatly..

But I endured..so waited for mummy to reach..

While waitng for her,I went shopping and got some of the essential stuff I need and I saw that big signboard over at La Senza...60%..OH MY GOD!!

I went in and start to ..u know wa..hahah...

The 1st time I stepped in was with Huiting...she was really spending alot..
Both of us love that shop and when i saw tt sale signboard..without further hestitation..i sms her and she like...DAMN,,U FOR REAL...WHEN IT END..I WANNA GO.. ETC..HAHAH

after all these shopping..mummy finally came and we had our christmas eve dinner at TUK TUK-the thai kitchen..

Trust me..the food is better than Thai Express..

after dinner..we went shop shop and happened to hear this song by Kelly Clarkson...I finally got tt title right..BREAK AWAY!!..

love the song man..

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Breakaway
Breakaway

i love the lyrics...

anyway..was looking through my digital camera and i realised i still got some photos which i have yet to upload...hmm..let see..

This photo was taken at the Teahouse@ China Square..Trust me..the food is super nice..it was a farwell dinner for me before i start my new phase ..really nice of mr chia to treat us..

and this is the place we drank and chill..Kazbar..very iranian style...

yep..next to me is nother other than mr chia and look at what my hand is holding..1 pint of hoegarden..from belgium..this information is given to me by my dear teacher-edwin..heehee..too bad..he is in hk now..if not we sure will go down there.

year end!! closing!! BONUS!!

2004-12-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

hiazzz....
31/12/2004 is approaqching very very soon...

when i was still a student..my feeling..anticipation...cos of what..year end party countdown with my friends,start of a new year etc..nothing but FUN!!

Now that I have stepped into a working society..year end means sales to rush...accounts to clear...everything to wrap up...all these equals to WORK,STRESS,PRESSURE etc...

and whats more..my line is the financial sector...the year end closing period...althought i am dealing with recruitment,i will still get to suffer a bit here and there of the stress and pressure..

hiaz...look at the time...10.58am..still got 2 hrs and 2 mins before i am offically off from work..

after work..i tjhink i will be heading down to town and get all the x mas gifts cum thank u gifts which i have yet to buy..so many ppl..how to buy..

dunno should buy...i really dont know..

everything is spend spend spend...haha...my secondary friends are asking me if i wanna join them..

fisherman village..hmm..i really dunoo..i seems to have lotsa things-to-do but i just cant finish them..haiz..

as i grows older..x mas eves,new yr eves are just another public holiday to me..
in fact,i would prefer a quieter,stay at home relax celebration..

xmas is really a season of giving...working in office...colleagues have been giving me chocolates,fruit cakes,cheese cakes,even cake lapis...i am getting fatter and fatter..oh gosh...

i can feel it...cos my pants are all getting too tight for me..damn...i must loss some weight...if not..i migh end up having no clothes to wear..

was passing by raffles city and saw the crowd in MANGO...my god...so many people till everybody had to queue up just to enter..

this way of shopping..fun?

after which..i was having dinner with kerry over @ Thai Express,Esplanade..and we start to talk...talk about the good and bad points of each other..seems that she hit the nails on my head direct..

my faults..all true...i am trying to change but is never easy..really not easy..

COUNT DOWN!! 7 DAYS BEFORE I OFFICIALLY END MY WORK..

OH BOY!! cant be earlier!!

i am back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

yep yep...i am back from the minei getaway which my dear kerry and i have been planning for such a LONG LONG TIME...we made it and had lotsa fun ..

seriously...the food was great...the shopping was great and the cafes hoping was the best..all thanks to the waiter,Kravin...u r damn cool...hahahha..we will find u again..really soon...

flashback of our getaway:

Seriously..this is really a damn cool trip..in fact..we will be planning for one more really soon before i fly..

yipee..cant wait..pan pacific puteri..we are coming again!!

back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:31:00.001+08:00

back from holidays again!!

2004-12-19T14:31:00.000+08:00

2004-11-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

okie okie..i know i have not been blogging for a very long time..

let me try to cont from where i ended k..

alright..during the past 1 month..i went for a mini holiday with my parents to malaysia...cant imagine that this round..i am trekkign with them..so unexpected of them..

esp the rambutan incident...u can never imagine that i was standing on 1 side just taking photos while my 2 floks and my uncle and anutie were up hacking the trees..wa to do..i am the camera woman..hehee

the whole 5 days..we went from singapore to kuala lumpur to tanjong malim to ipoh and port dickson..all over malaysia..my mom almost wanted to go to penang cos it is only 1 and half drive to penang from ipoh..

of cos..not forgetting my mum's home town..tanjong malim..really nice place..small chinese town...everyday,every night..my uncles and anuties will be driving us to eat supper and drink..and i was in fact very surprised to find that in such a small town..there is also a clubbing street...lotsa yuppies ard..of cos..i drank quite a lot..not forgetting their special coffee ice cream...yummy..damn nice and cheap...
RM 2

there is even a hot spring over there..but dun to wrong time management...we had to forgo tt part..

tanjong malim brings back alot of fond memories..

i used to tell someone that i will bring him there one day or at least before his enlistment cos i know he will love tt place..

totally out of singapore..we used to imagine ourselves backpacking there..is till could rem the discussions we used to have while we were on the bus..

backpacking tanjong malim first then we will go backpacking in aus..and our final destinatiom..tibet..

our dreams..but we r not fulfilling it ..he has been enlisted and i am working...

he knew that i am leaving soon..and i got a surprise tt he will be posted overseas too...probably aus too...cos nsf got their base there..

i hope he will made it thought for his tue's interview...i will be awaiting his good news..

okie okie...let me show u all some of the pics which were taken during my holiday trip..

yummy noodles which mummy and i went to seek for it again..but haiz..no longer there :(
sisterhoodhippest granny ard in town!!

if u can never ever step into my world

2004-11-28T02:25:00.000+08:00

I know that it's over
and I can't believe we're through
they say that time's a healer (yeah)
and I'm better without you
it's gonna take time I know
but I'll get over you
(chorus: look at my life
look at my heart
I have seen them fall apart
now I'm ready to rise again
jus look at my hopes
look at my dreams
building bridges from these scenes
now I'm ready to rise again)
caught up in my thinking
(yeah)
like a prisoner in my mind
you pose so many questions
that the truth was hard to find
I better think twice I know
that I'll get over you
(chorus)
much time has passed between us
do you still think of me at all?
my world of broken promises
you won't catch me when I fall
(chorus)

late late night

2004-10-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

is e weekend again....i have been looking forward to it althought i did not have much plans..

in e end,arrangments start to flow in..
finally met up with my magnum seniors after such a long time...we had steamboat over at marina south..has been some time i last saw them..we definately had fun-cooking food,talking and definately bitching as usual..hahaha..

too bad..i could not stay longer cos someone else was waiting with the movie tickets for me..

we watched old boy..trust me..the storyline is pretty disturbing..i really had some side effects after the show,in fact i cant sleep...

the night weather was rainy..but damn..we went to tt food center located at tt carpark to have our supper..

very " romantic" night..sitting in the rain,under the tent,eating and drinking ..back to the 1980s..haha..we were talking abt that..

i dun understand..when we start to sit down,we will start to talk about topics which i dun like to bring up..things which i have been shuffling aside...

wa to do..ppl are concerned over tt matter..

after supper,i headed back home and wen online and saw dear..surprisingly..

the night before,he was supposed to be having a party with his friends..and i thought he is the kind whereby the night is still young...hahaha..

so sweet of dear to come online and talk to me about his party and we ended up logging out of msn and talked on the phone..but dear if u r reading this..u r really very forgetful..how can u leave ur hp like tt ard..

u see..now no handphone and need to buy a new 1...yet u still could behave as cool and calm..

sorry dear,i know u wanted to meet me today but i think i rather u go for ur classes then to miss them k...we can always meet up another day ..

fixed??

2004-10-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time i tried to upload some pics into my blog..

tried a few times but dun seems to be functioning..haiz..

the birthday cake...a 3 kg very fruitty cake..full of blue berries

happy that most of my best buddies made it..still got somemore photos which i have yet to upload..

wait for part 2 then..

finally 21 !!

2004-10-17T13:51:00.000+08:00

well..officially a 21..made some decisions for a start!!

i am carrying on with my life without u..got the message..
but seriously..a big thank u to u cos u taught me alot of things and made me realised who are the people who really care for me and there for me..

all the best dude!!

weird isnt it...9 months ago.you were the one telling me tt but 9 months later,i am telling it back to you but of cos without the last wish u told me..

i cant be the 1 sitting beside you while u are driving anymore...

take care..

alright..

the party is over and lets have a look at all the pics which were taken on tt day itself..

first the cake..a 3 kg cake with blue berry filling in the middle..

the early bird award was given to none other than my dearest cousin who came all the way from malaysia..

if we have early birds,definately without furtherado,we also have the late birds..but better late then never right..

things were back as before

2004-10-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

it has been 9 months i last saw him..
same person..a change of a sport car..me a working adult...

he was always there-in my heart..the old days were happening 9 months later..

driving ard singapore at night,
enjoying the nice sea breeze,
back to the place we first met,
the usual hangout we used to go...

u ask if i am willing to be beside you again..
ur approach is the same as what you used 10 months ago...while u were driving along ECP..

u still remember the things we used to talk about..
the dreams we used to make..
the trips which we used to plan...
the places we used to go..

i wished i could say a yes..
i would wan to accompany you everytime u drive ard singapore..holding onto ur hand while we stroll down the beaches..
be the one who will suppport ur goals,ur dreams,ur wishes..

i would be ever readily to support u whenever u need me..
but how about you?

seems that your job is the barrier..i understand ur diffculties...frequently out in the sea..travelling here and there..
busy and tight working schedule..

i need your attention..i am not that independent as what u think...
i dun expect you to be reporting to me everyday..it not about how often we see each other..it is the quality that matters..

days without you around is terrible...worrying about your safety is horrible..

we started 10 months ago without really understanding each other..thinking that things would turn out well..but we were wrong..

wrong timing then..how about now...i dunno..

how long can all these last?
i also dunno...
i really dunno...

maybe you can tell me...

what kind of world are we living in..

2004-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

one of my best buddy ended her so many years relationship..

when i spoke to her,she just tell me..lost the feeling..

she used to tell me if ever a day,the both of them ended..she will not be able to take it...

one really dont know what happen in the future..

will we ever be the same person as we used to be?
be with the person who once promised to protect us etc..

fate i guess..

i have been feeling rather borther by alot of things lately..
lack of sleep and rest ..maybe...cos i have been staying out pretty late e past few days..

to chill with my friends.

damn vexxed up..when should i really let my boss know that i am leaving?should i wait for him to come and look for me or i go and look for him...

i really dont know...

i guess i have been too stressful lately..

so sicked...took a 2 days mc...my whole system is breaking down..and legs sure go soft..

even walkling can fall down..so clumby..

nothing better to do..

2004-09-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

my old pc is finally restored!!
of cos..all e credits should go to my dearest brother..he spent the past few nights solving all the problems...

but he concluded and told me..NEVER TO USE THE COMP AGAIN...seems tt i am always the one giving the comp problem...haha..

looking thought my old files...i found alot of photos which we used to take when we got nothing to do..

i always remember this photo..it was taken using clay's first camera phone...tt samsung 180 camera...

being nerdy and never really ever touch a camera phone..my best buddy and i...start to use the camera function and took this pic just before class...

i sure missed those days..

this gal..my soulmate,my studymate,my roommate and definately my bitching parnter..soon we will be staying together and maybe get sicked of each other for the next 1 yr plus...

who is she..tts her

look at the face...e just out of bed look...haha..

and while looking through...i cant believe i still have this pic..
so many yrs back...look at clay's hair and mine..still rebonded tt time..haha..

no more rebonded hair,no more colored hair..now is normal and black...

and worse..my first project presentation pic...with my xclusive gang...

we had the best time together..
cheryl,flor and me working..
paul sreving the nation and clay..serving the nation soon...

the 5 of us...always hanging together..shopping la...eating la...play pool..

we were still young..still can rem them singing my 18 birthday song out at raffles place mrt...loud and sweet..no1 ever did tt be4...of cos...they sure did certaib thing which i cant forget forever!!