what kind of world are we living in..

one of my best buddy ended her so many years relationship..

when i spoke to her,she just tell me..lost the feeling..

she used to tell me if ever a day,the both of them ended..she will not be able to take it...

one really dont know what happen in the future..

will we ever be the same person as we used to be?
be with the person who once promised to protect us etc..

fate i guess..

i have been feeling rather borther by alot of things lately..
lack of sleep and rest ..maybe...cos i have been staying out pretty late e past few days..

to chill with my friends.

damn vexxed up..when should i really let my boss know that i am leaving?should i wait for him to come and look for me or i go and look for him...

i really dont know...

i guess i have been too stressful lately..

so sicked...took a 2 days mc...my whole system is breaking down..and legs sure go soft..

even walkling can fall down..so clumby..

nothing better to do..

my old pc is finally restored!!
of cos..all e credits should go to my dearest brother..he spent the past few nights solving all the problems...

but he concluded and told me..NEVER TO USE THE COMP AGAIN...seems tt i am always the one giving the comp problem...haha..

looking thought my old files...i found alot of photos which we used to take when we got nothing to do..

i always remember this photo..it was taken using clay's first camera phone...tt samsung 180 camera...

being nerdy and never really ever touch a camera phone..my best buddy and i...start to use the camera function and took this pic just before class...

i sure missed those days..

this gal..my soulmate,my studymate,my roommate and definately my bitching parnter..soon we will be staying together and maybe get sicked of each other for the next 1 yr plus...

who is she..tts her



look at the face...e just out of bed look...haha..

and while looking through...i cant believe i still have this pic..
so many yrs back...look at clay's hair and mine..still rebonded tt time..haha..



no more rebonded hair,no more colored hair..now is normal and black...

and worse..my first project presentation pic...with my xclusive gang...


we had the best time together..
cheryl,flor and me working..
paul sreving the nation and clay..serving the nation soon...

the 5 of us...always hanging together..shopping la...eating la...play pool..

we were still young..still can rem them singing my 18 birthday song out at raffles place mrt...loud and sweet..no1 ever did tt be4...of cos...they sure did certaib thing which i cant forget forever!!

boring wednesday

someone whom i have longed seen e mailed me..
when i saw his name in my mailbox..

lotsa memories came back...
those days...driving trips to beaches...around our neighbourhood...cant help but to miss him alot..

i thought he was forgetten and deleted from my memory till today..but he was not.he never was deleted before...

it is good to receive his e mail..
he is still e same as before...working at the same place..life is pretty much e same for him..

dont know why..i cant help to feel happy to see his e mail..at least i know that he is doing well..

let me see..it has been like...1 yr we broke up...almost 9 odd months we last saw each other..

e break up of the relationship is pretty mutual..
none of us cheated behind each other's back..nothin at all..i guess the reason for the breakup-e lack of communication.

i always assumed...i thought..were the main cause..
never

finally friday...

The day which i have been looking forward finally arrived!!!
Friday..
let's see..i am left with 1 hr and 22 mins and it's time for me to party...oh boy..so excited..

early in the mroning...i spend $19 just to get to work...my heart practically cracked...seriously..cracked..not cos of 19 but cos of just $3 going for the ERP...sucky man..

morning was busy with meeting..
the monthly BOSS meeting...as usual...proposals to rush..new rules set..etc..u name it all...i got them out...

haiz..i had a really bad start for the day...deadlines to meet...quotas to clear..

even my colleague says tt being my position is one tough and stressful 1...

i cant wait to see the clock strike 6pm..

let me get out of this boring and stressful office and enjoy myself..

hmm..should i head tonight...harry's? or...

really need to find a good place to chill out man..have been a rough patch the past few days..

someone whom i thought i loss contact came back...i thought he was deleted from my "database" but i still felt tt bad..

on my way back home..i purposely walked..to clear my thoughts before i met kerry...

is the exact path which someone accompanied me be4...

how i wished tt we have a button called the "delete" button so we can just removed all the crap away..haiz

winter in my office?

time check...it is 3.25pm..

and look at what i am doing now...looking through all old records..

office is extremely cold today...had to put on my jacket to keep myself warm..

kinda wonder how i am going to endure the weather in perth..

staring at my computer,i cant help to love my current job..

ppl can be extremely nice to u..

initially..when i first started this job...i told myself..well..it is just a job to help u earn tt extra cash..but now seems tt i am feeling a little sad to let go...

my fav colleague was telling me not to go...well well..on the other hand...she wans me to go..at elast for my future..

i guess..i will missed her alot..alot..the fun times we had..chatting in my office...lunch together

and the next best thing is..i am looking forward for my holiday..finally..after working..haha...

i guess it will be a backpacking trip to some island in malaysia...
a getaway..finally...oh man..

kinda vexxed with which island to go...tioman or bersa..

rainy rainy day

time check...11.48 am...soon to be my lunch hr...yipee..

the weather is good..cool and rainy...i love it esp when i am in e office...
keeping myself warm in my jacket...so cozy feeling...

the sky is so nice to stare at now...
my room view...

a row of private housings and my bottle of sand..

i took it out from tt 500 ml full bottle which my friend gave me...trust me..it is really a FULL bottle of sand...but its alright...cos half of it is at home while e other half..accompanying me in my office..

and suddenly..i realised..the famous linkway which was supposed to be build is actually right in front of me..

i never raelly paid much attention to my window view till today..wow..no wonder all my collegues love to come into my office to look at the window..cos it is so beautiful...heehee

still waiting for the clock to strike 6..haiz

still got a few mins be4 is 6pm...
so sianz..

spend an hr interviewing 1 candidate...but SUCCESS!!
i managed to convince him to sign up for exams...haha...so proud of myself...slowly loving the kick to meet more ppl....

but damn...doing interviews can be really tiring...talking non stop...my throat really hurts

well well..it is worth it...

a boring monday..thinking of wherethe should i go meet kerry for coffee or just head home since i might be waiting to pass some stuff to someone...

maybe i should just go home first n change...slacking in my office wear sucks big time...

sometimes...it feels good to find some joy in the mids of a busy busy office..

ppl whom u think is fierce are not tt evil after all...a small favour in fact can win their hearts...

the smile u received is really satisfying...

haha...then be4 then..we were chatting with ting n her friend...so funny...talking abt each other's boyfriends...whose got better body la..etc..typical gals..wa to do...

WE R GALS anyway..haha..

in a matter of few years,we will be talking abt ur husband,my kids etc..

part n parcel of life...

oh ya...during the weekend,i saw someone whom used to be very very important to me...someone whom used to be part of my life...

wa should i say..hmm...i dun feel tt angry or pissed when i see him..maybe u were right..time will heal tt cut u gave to my heart..

in fact,i was happy to see him after such a long time...good to see tt he is doing well afterall..
still in a piece...haha...

however,his appearance kinda feel like a refresh button on the computer screen..

those memories,the parting scene ...all just came back...

haha..those were the days..we have both changed..tts of cos for sure....
guess i have to end here now...is finally 6.03pm..

I AM ON MY WAY HOME!!!

in my boring boring office

look at the time...is only 2.57pm...

oh man...still got 3 more hours before i can go home or at least get out of this boring office..

morning was very very peaceful cos no one ard..there was a seminar with a woo wa name..POWER UP!!

all the managers went down..i would say at least most la..enough to make the office peaceful..

work has been extremely stressful..this morning.i just saw the recruitment competition which is on going for the whole company..thank god..my branch is the top..if not...tts the end for me..

stress stress stress...
lotsa things to worry...things just kept adding to my work load..but dun seems to see tt my pay is increasing..haha..

well..is okie...at least i got a job..

lets refresh...wa was my weekend...i just wrote a very brief outline in the previous blog..

hmm..sat night was at chalet with my secondary classmates...one of my 24/7 buddy turned 21..so happy for her..grand n big celebration...

make me kinda think of how should i celebrate mine...i guess..mine will be a quiet and boring 1 cos i still be working tt day...sad..

turning 21 is pretty stressful..all e responsiblities..

haiz..well...after the celebration..i went down to boat quay and watched tt MAN U vs dunno wa name team..it was a draw..

quite a boring match..was stoning n drinking...

the fun part started when my friends sang my favourite song..leaving on a jet plane..but turn out the version was john denver..so high ..but they were very sporting...

they sang the whole song ..which really me laugh till i tear..so funny guy friends i have..haha...

i think the whole ktv room ppl were staring at us...but oh well..it was fun to feel malu once in a blue moon.

had been a long long time i had so much fun..

my weekend

has been a late nights weekends for me..

e previous weekend was dancing in dbl o cos it was my friend's 21st birthday..

and this weekend was drinking,singing and watching the man u match with the guys...

mood has been not very good recently..

like what my dear kerry says:

A lady only visit a pub for 2 reasons
either she is extremely happy or she is extremely moody..
guess mine is the later..

she was a good buddy...accompany me during this rough time...

fri was meeting clayton...the 1/3 of the bitches..haha..he the horrible guy...has been like dunno how many many months we last met up...tts why we named our dinner as the fellowship of the bitches...

haha...caught up with so many things...watever nanmo...u name it all..we are still full of our crazy ideas and chatting abt this body tt illness while having dinner...cool right...ppl with a weak stomach cant take it..haha..

after tt..brought tt clay to my fav or should i say our fav beancurd lane...
memories came back again..cant help it..

same place,same beancurd but ppl change...no longer as happy as before...what happen?i dont know...

there has been this saying tt..if u r happy ,everything taste good..might be true..cos tt night beancurd does not taste as good as before..